whats the use of knowledge if you lack the wisdom to guide your intellect?
how could you possibly love someone if you cant love yourself?
what matters of idle talk when nothing of substantial importance can be mentioned?
why dedicate if you dont practice?
why believe when you can inquire instead.

i think its safe to say that im just being realistic.

Cynicism (Greek: Kυνισμός) originally comprised the various philosophies of a group of ancient Greeks called the Cynics, founded by Antisthenes in about the 4th century BC. The Cynics rejected all conventions, whether of religion, manners, housing, dress, or decency, advocating the pursuit of virtue in a simple and unmaterialistic lifestyle.

By the 19th century, emphasis on the negative aspects of Cynic philosophy led to a new and very different understanding of cynicism to mean an attitude of jaded negativity, and a general distrust of the integrity or professed motives of other people. Modern cynicism, as a product of mass society, is a distrust toward professed ethical and social values, especially when there are high expectations concerning society, institutions and authorities which are unfulfilled. Cynicism can manifest itself as a result of frustration, disillusionment, and distrust perceived as due to organizations, authorities and other aspects of society, and thus is roughly equivalent to a substantive form of the English word "jaded".

boredom is the slow decay of youth

economic recessions blagh blagh. i am tired of hearing the same old business rhetoric over and over, these days its hard not to sling out dry humor like a repeater crossbow, piercing the sorry saps of this lost degeneration. the universe is indifferent to my trivial existence so i dont blame you for this shitty streak of unemployment, but damn, a brother needs to stack his papes. honest money? yeah fucking right. but until i can somehow pull off a mastermind heist its gonna be toiling away under the stalemating heat lamps for a little longer.

tainted seeds

inside my heart accumulates a ball of sludge manifest by the hatred that i have for you. it burdens me to carry these feelings of contempt for everything you mean to me. and it is truly unfortunate you cant even sum up the courage to face me and tell me the truth about what why you left the family. you represent everything i hate in this world. you are a coward and a liar. you have lost your chance with me for you can no longer fool me or control me, i am now free from your manipulations.

depreciation

to put it simply, i dont owe this system jack.

for those of you who make honest livings and still live at the bottom of the barrel, ask yourself is it really worth it?

CFC - city drift

CFC - city drift


outright cypher in victoria.

finally

aight aight, its the return.

and to properly address the official reopening to this ancient and weary blog, it is only proper to begin this new era in the history of these confessed ramblings by reminding you all that during the time of my absence, much has been learned, much has been experienced, much has been gained and much has been lost. but most importantly and notably one thing has remained the same, and it is that insistent task of maintaining my stubborn yet tiring cynical worldview of my critical/intellectual mind.

ah yes, the grass is greener, the trees are mature, the leaves represent the greatest shades of autumn and i am happily enjoying every last lush inch of this magnificent island. the stories of this place are true, the island inhabits a brooding specter that loves the surreal and the magic you once knew as a child begins to resurface. even the moss that grows between the cracks of the sidewalks, and thrives on the rock faces seem enchanted. how lovely it is. i have been blessed with more than i could want, yet this new found freedom must be met with diligence and determination to discover my hearts path. it is all too easy to stray beyond, you could be on one path and then in an instant a distraction would cause you to cross a hedge row only to find yourself in a maze where every turn led you nowhere. it is evident many my age have strayed into the masses of lost children, wandering the streets scraping the concrete for any kind of escapism available. focus and integrity is what is going to get me through the hard and humble beginnings of this new life.

life is more balanced here, both the hemispheres of my mind can exercise thought without bickering too much between the rational and irrational. my heart has a voice hear and its refreshing to know that i am not always being governed by the mind as was the case in Calgary.

i have little wealth but who cares, happiness here doesn't cost a dime