as the days grow older the petals of this complicated foliage that layers my mind blooms in a peak experience of clarity and momentary bliss. the petals eventually whither and shed themselves so now its time for a new growth season. experience has taught me not to be naive of my own immaturity. it is indeed humbling to aknowledge that established foundations do indeed become uprooted in order to make way for another seedling of opportune. i have learned significantly about how my own psychy works from that previous love and how it is these lessons that life bestows upon which inherently become your referance guides that will facilitate how you behave and think in the future. it is undeniably remarkable what the human mind will do in order to keep love alive, the experience of utter desperation in which the self inflicts mesochistic occurence has been so apparent in my last relationship that towards the end of this extremely volatile love my manic obsession and infatuation grew to unhealthy proportions. when i look back, i observe it through a pespective of positivity, it would seem copletely detrimental to do otherwise. that kind of passion i felt i fear will never be matched because it permeated through all levels of that relationship. becoming bound to someones body, mind and spirit in such a manner of intense love connection will truly never be severed because it has been ingrained deeply into my grey matter and muscle memory. i see them not as scars, nor war wounds but rather as abbrasions of wisdom. it was a process that needed to happen in order for me to grow into a more seasoned warrior, the kind of conditioning that prepares you for your destiny perhaps?
i am extremely happy i am able to look back with smiles and fond memories, the bad ones seem trivial at this point and its safe to say i can even crack jokes about it. leave it to your opposing nature to reveal yourself to you. i have learned so much
thank you
Dyakooyu
Salamat
mamnoon
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