filling gaps (with cream cheese)

just one moment
one insignificant yet profound second is all i need
a slight of hand to bring it all back again
like a foolish sea faring man in utter defiance i stand in this crows nest facing the storm that has come to pass. "WAS THAT IT!!!? IS THAT ALL YOU FUCKING GOT!!!? YOU CAN DO BETTER!!". he slumps to the floor tattered and scarred wishing that turbulent ocean would have swept him away, but perhaps it is not yet his time to be put out of his own misery. his hooked right hand clings with a grip of rigor mortis to the mast. this massive mast of cynicism and doubt that keeps him rooted on this rotting boat.

there is a reason why i am still here, wading in Dante's inferno
wandering around the city of dis trying to piece together broken relationships
tying loose ends, shedding more skin.
i am undergoing a metamorphosis, i can feel this transformation.
one half clinging onto all it knows and one half that's liberated itself completely, bored and looking for something new.

and i remember, what you taught me
and i remember, how you tried to break my wall
and i can still feel, those burning embers of that wildfire
and i can assure that i appreciate it all